A bump on a log...

My mother's quote... "a bump on a log" is how I feel... I sit here and imagine well if I am a bump on log how would I look? Do I have moss on me, am I rolling down a river, do I have the hot spot in town where people come from all around to sit on me? I wonder what all the bump sees other than bums of peoples backside? Just chills out and observes... maybe I am a bump on a log.

Did you know you could be a follower of your own blog? Yup, you can, just did! haha Now I have four followers including myself... I'm cool (brushing the shoulder). No, seriously life it good. STILL looking for a job. I feel soooooooo at the mercy of others... do you have experience? "No, but if you just let me work for you I will!!!" Simple right? Why don't they just see that?

Today I thought of my "age group" is like middle school/junior high all over again, when you are in the awkward ugly age and puberty is having a go at embarrassing and controlling your mind and body. This is it folks, puberty all over again...just in another form. Life is getting awkward yet another time... Sooooo what are you doing with your life? What are your plans? What are  you doing now? What are you wanting to do in the future? Do you want to have kids? Do you have a boyfriend? No? OH, why not? So are you in school? Do you have a degree? What degree do you have? Are you going to do anything with it? Why kind of jobs are you looking for? Yes... as you can see I can go on forever. Does "AWKARD" ever come up? Does the urge of yelling "I DON'T KNOW, STOP ASKING ME" come up...ever? Ohhh all the time? Yes, I don't know... and I want it to be okay that I don't know, but little do I feel that. Society has the pressure. Then, when you try to escape society you are either running from responsibility or "not living in reality".

I think I should change the topic. In my time off, I have had a lot more time to read my bible! I have been reading in Mark lately... Sooooo rich with wisdom. I have so much to work on and dedicate to. I want to pray as if I will receive instead of just hoping. I know now that hoping is not trusting it is just hoping.

I also am learning how to make a pillow case!! Baby steps... but I am so happy to take them!
Sooo if you are wondering the question that I am able to answer... Am I happy????!! YES, I am :) If I don't know the answers to the prior questions I can't answer yet, then I am not ready to know. :) Faith, trust and patience my friends... ---> (a finger pointing to me too.)
In Mark it says "fear not, only believe"... that is my mantra lately, it is my mantra because I repeat it in my head as often as I remember it. I don't want to forget it. Thankful for the holy spirit that helps us with remembrance.

Planning on going on a fun trip in the new future!! Will be happy to write about it soon!!!